Saturday, February 5, 2011

Pregnancy - Week 35

Here goes my first attempt at blogging. 
I'm almost 36 weeks pregnant with my baby girl - Raven. 
She has Spina Bifida and I'm scared out of my mind, but I also feel so blessed to be entrusted with such a special little person. 
I found out she was going to have sb when I was 21 weeks along and given the horrifying option to abort her. 
It made me sick to my stomach. I couldn't even imagine doing that to my sweet innocent baby that I was just starting to feel move, just starting to fall madly in love with. I was disgusted, I wanted to do nothing but get out of that place. I didn't ask any questions, even though I knew absolutely nothing about sb. I cried most of the way home as I started to do research from my cell phone. 
I did so much research, it was all so grim. Nothing I read told me the amazing things these children accomplish, nothing I found could do any justice to seeing these children in action. I found an AMAZING support group on Facebook and the people on there are so great. They've helped me over many hurdles, even through a couple of sleepless nights. 
I cannot wait to be on their side, to watch my little one do the amazing things that their children do.
 I cannot wait to start our journey. I cannot wait to meet this little girl that, clubbed feet and all, loves to use my ribs as a trampoline. It's an amazing feeling. She is my second, and my son never kicked as hard as she does. 
My little miracle child. 

Mommy loves you Raven Alicia. 
See you in 3 weeks <3